Metal Militia
03-22-2004, 07:06 AM
I remember it as if it were yesterday. You were picking your way through that crowd of people, looking for a shorter line to wait in, anxious to be gone from that place for a goddess should never be among such riff raff. You did not see me until the last second, when you almost passed me by, but I saw you from a dozen yards away. You were just as beautiful as I remembered you from so long ago. Your flawless face so delicately shadowed by your glistening hair. You had grown, from the young girl I knew, into the most beautiful woman I've ever laid eyes on. You had changed so much, the softness in your eyes had remained, but I could see the wisdom and character in them which you had acquired and experienced, you were grown and I wished so badly I could have been apart of at least some it. Of all the places I had imagined seeing you, I didnt want you to see me here, not like this tired and worn from a long day of work, but just to be near you I immedietely brushed it from my mind. Instead, I tried to think of all the smooth things I would say to you if I ever saw you again. But as I stood there transfixed, my mind just seemed to shut down. As if the shock in seeing you again had completely erased any memory of my foolish dreams. Your glorious brown eyes met mine, and recognition of me flashed through you and you smiled. A smile I had dreamt of for so long. A smile I thought I would never see again. A smile I would give anything to see again. A smile which I failed to respond to. I dont know why, but I couldn't move. Dumbly I simply nodded, and in that instant I saw the change. I honestly believe I saw the hurt flash in your eyes, the disapointment because I had not responded as I should have. I had not done what I swore I would do if I ever had the chance to see you again. I had completely and utterly failed in the one thing I had clung to for so long. In a second, I had destroyed any hope of you coming to my aid and saving me from the mess I had made of my self. I had ruined everything I thought would eventually come to be. I had failed in this as I have failed in everything I''ve held important. So, when you approached me, the lowly cashier of that lifeless store I was working in, we were complete strangers. Any connection we could have made was severed because I had failed. I had destroyed my dream, and you walked away that fatefull day, never to return again into my life. Now, as I struggle to just keep going, I must bear this guilt and regret with me. For I know I can never forget you.