Little something I wrote while I was mad.

[eFaReL]

My anger is building up, building up that I am just going to blow up on someone. I hate living in this house, my relatives make me really uncomfortable and do not try to make me feel at home. I am not their son only a relative, I hate them for trying to control me on how to dress, act, and be. I hate how they ask me the same damn questions almost everyday. I hate how I can't do what I would like to do. I haven't been able to relax at since I got to this house. I hate how they think I am just here so they can tell me what to do. I hate how they think they can make my decisions for me, I hate how they talk for me, I hate how they think they know whats best for me. I HATE THEM!!!
My anger is building up, I am about to lose control.

[chiral]

you poor lost angry soul.
looks like you are a job for --
LINKIN PARK.

[shiver-]

nice, is it a song?

[Dominium]

wow.

[NOF]

Um when im mad i do the only thing i can get over it, no im not being sarcastic or rude. If you are depressed you just get over it, depression and anger can edn its up 2 you to stop it though...

[Feeshay]

:drool: i love it it brought tears to my eyes :drool:

[chiral]

:drool: i love it it brought tears to my eyes :drool:

... feeshay
you either as drunk as a fish or you need some serious therapy, man.

[blaine.]

Ya know who I hate right now... Kramer. Just because he is the king of basketball and his dad coaches the St. Louis Billicans doesn't mean he can fowl me or adam when we drive for a layup, but we can't fowl him. Today we were playing and he drove, I was getting fed up with him so I stripped the ball. He jumped on me, I dropped the ball and elbowed him then punched him and then he shoved me so i tripped him... then we kept playing until there was a loose ball thenme and him were running for it so I shoved him and he tripped me from behind and I splattered so when he picked up the ball I tackled him we both got up and he shoved me so i tried to pull him but I pulled his shirt and he left, got the ball, and shot a three making it saying F*** u and so I got the ball checked it passed it to adam (adam if u are reading this thx for the pass) adam passed it back and I did a pump fake he went up i shoved him and rob then scored the e z two. then it was time to go and i came home and wrote this
sry for those/all of you that don't care... cuz I'm just writing this to get some steam off my cheast... so u don't really have to read this... guess I shoulda told ja that at the beginning of my post...

[AvengerxZ]

Um when im mad i do the only thing i can get over it, no im not being sarcastic or rude. If you are depressed you just get over it, depression and anger can edn its up 2 you to stop it though...


Well thats a load of BULLSHIT. You don't just 'get over' depression. It's a medical disorder resulting from chemical imbalances in your brain. Being mad can be a symptom of despression so dont tell him to just 'get over' it. :disgust:

And I feel the same way eFaReL-.

[chiral]

lol.
i find a good way to get out of depression is to stay angry.
but once the anger fades away, you know the walls of depression awaits you.

[NOF]

Avenger you watch way to much prosac comercails. The truth is that most people who get all depressed are just wanting attention. I dont know u eaferal im sure you are a great guy who is mad. But look here, you can get oer depression, unless you where molested raped ect. Other kinds of depression can be overcome if !you! want them to! You may say no im just depresed i cant get over it.... well then be like the rest of the shot up americans who create a drug for everything... Your kids hyper ooo shoot him up with ridaline... WTF! You are to stressed out take prosac and zoloft, lets all creat artifcail drugs to make us seem ok when we are not. Yeah i was depressed and though i had a medical condition... BS! It was just me winning cuase life was hard and i was sad! PEOPLE WHAT IN THE WORLD wake up and smell the cofee... Stop shooting drugs and lets all get over it.. I love you sexually

[AvengerxZ]

Avenger you watch way to much prosac comercails. The truth is that most people who get all depressed are just wanting attention. I dont know u eaferal im sure you are a great guy who is mad. But look here, you can get oer depression, unless you where molested raped ect. Other kinds of depression can be overcome if !you! want them to! You may say no im just depresed i cant get over it.... well then be like the rest of the shot up americans who create a drug for everything... Your kids hyper ooo shoot him up with ridaline... WTF! You are to stressed out take prosac and zoloft, lets all creat artifcail drugs to make us seem ok when we are not. Yeah i was depressed and though i had a medical condition... BS! It was just me winning cuase life was hard and i was sad! PEOPLE WHAT IN THE WORLD wake up and smell the cofee... Stop shooting drugs and lets all get over it.. I love you sexually

It's called clinical depression and I personally have it. I have for 5 years of my life. Don't even try and put yourself in anyones shoes when you have no fucking clue. If I and many other people could just GETOVER it then we would. Why do people suffer so much you ass hole. Dont degrade people because they have issues and you don't. It's hard and thats all there is to it. Drugs help, thats why they are made. They balance out those checmicals that CAUSE problems. Sometimes there are things beyond your immediate control and you have to get external medication to help maintain them. Even if it is just covering up the problem it's still getting rid of the pain/suffering of depression. So how about this, you GET OVER your fascination with thinking humans control everything involving their personal health.

[NOF]

Hey i never attacked you but then you personally lashed out at me. I think this is a sign of your imaturity. I stated what i belived not what i though about you as a person. so much you ass hole. Maybe when you are mature enough to get over yourself pride we will be able to have a seroius conversation about what depression is and what people have made it be. Im sorry that i even got this started with you cuase it does seem a waste of my time to say my ideas and have you personally attack me. Bad manner and poor repect.... :disgust:

[AvengerxZ]

I'm passionate about what I preach. Sorry to have attacked you but please don't think your-self fit to judge someone or their condition when you don't know the truth about it.

[NOF]

Im glad you are sorry am i over this as well i look forward to speaking about this some other time.

[AvengerxZ]

Wow thats crazy, you replied within one minute. Gosu. :cool2:

[eFaReL]

LOL I am not depressed at all, I am just angry with my relatives because they are trying to control my life which they haven't had much success but they do make me quite mad, but i try not to show it while im around them i just ignore them. A while back I made a thread on how you all take out stress or deal when your mad and well so far I have been going to the gym lately so I can try to relieve some stress and my angry attitude towards my realtives. I try to better my self by not letting my anger take over me and blow up on my relatives but its getting harder sometimes. I can control my anger almost all the time when I get mad but there are just sometimes that I feel like I will explode on my relatives, so I go to the gym and lift weights and run for almost three hours a day just so I can try to release stress and feel better.

When I lived with my brothers and parents I had no problem showing my anger because I always talked to my dad when I got mad about something even when I was mad at him, but when you live in a different state with people who are your relatives but do not know them very well I have to act different around them, I can't be myself. I can not just go into the kitchen and eat the food like i used to at my home, I have to wait for a fucking certain time to eat, I can not watch tv like I used, infact I barely watch television now and I just have to follow their rules which I am not used at all and I am having a hard time accepting them.

But how can i accept them and their rules if they do not even accept me as an individual who has his own opinions and lifestyle. These relatives I live with are probably the only strict people in my entire family tree or whatever. gym and writing helps me because I can relieve some stress in gym and express myself in writing. And visiting this website also helps because it helps me forget about my relatives.

[Goonster]

Being sad or angry and depressed is different. Being sad is a short term negative feeling but being depressed is so much more.
Depression usually leads to extreme anxiety / phobias / anti-social and lots sicnesses.

Please do not mix them up.

[Goonster]

It's called clinical depression and I personally have it. I have for 5 years of my life. Don't even try and put yourself in anyones shoes when you have no fucking clue. If I and many other people could just GETOVER it then we would. Why do people suffer so much you ass hole. Dont degrade people because they have issues and you don't. It's hard and thats all there is to it. Drugs help, thats why they are made. They balance out those checmicals that CAUSE problems. Sometimes there are things beyond your immediate control and you have to get external medication to help maintain them. Even if it is just covering up the problem it's still getting rid of the pain/suffering of depression. So how about this, you GET OVER your fascination with thinking humans control everything involving their personal health.

Yeah I know what you mean I have been diagnosed with it this September and it is absolutely terrible! your life changes. Do not get them mixed up plz.

[NOF]

Hey im not a dick i didint see clinical depression in the 1776? Or im to lazy to get the facts if u get them and show me u can yell in my ear OWNED!

[xio]

You poor guy!

[dvu_ovp]

You must be a teenager going through those "awkward" years huh? (I'm 21). It'll pass its your hormones. -- Hormones can really F#$@ somebody up man, just ask a woman in menapause. Sometimes I look back at when I was say 14 -17 and say, wtF was I smoking?!?!? It's almost like I was possessed by irrationality. Am I wrong? Oh well. Might as well flush that one semester of psychology classes down the drain.

[eFaReL]

I am 18 dvu_ovp like you said a teenager, and living with these relatives has really made me stress out more and I get angry alot more than I used to. I have told them many times that I need personal space but they do not understand. And they ask just to many damn questions, one right after the other.

cant they shut up even after they are asked and told how much they bother me.

[4rm]

Sounds like you should be more understanding and communicative to your relatives. Its doubtful that they are doing all these thigns just to make you angry or depressed, so you should figure out what the problem is.. like if they just dont know how to raise you so they set all these rules up, or if its the opposite and the rules are more good for you than they are bad, or if they just want you to move out of the dam house already. IMO tho, its not something to get depressed over, but its hard to see if its maybe a good thing youre angry over this stuff and its making you go workout and get into shape plus re-asses your life and making you think.. mebe you should just stay were you are and figure it out on your own.. Maybe I should not have wrote this post, but I think my point is: don't let it trip you up too much, theres alot of other things you can spend your life doing instead of being bummed out all the time.

[EBSCatastrophe]

some serious anger going on here man, im glad you put it into writing tho, instead of hurting someone :(

[Pumpernickel]

Anger, hate, suffering; these are the ways of the Dark Side.

Err, sorry Star Wars mania phase or something. I'm such a nerd <_<.

Anyhow, have you tried yelling at them? If you told them what was bugging you maybe they would be more understanding. If you have tried it already, then get a metal bat and find ways of persuasion.

[l[v]O.o[v]l]

ur parents gave you life. use it well :taz:

[LuxuRy]

NOF stop being so damn arogant and admit that you're wrong --; Depression is a sickness and it's proven. Why do you argue things you don't even know about? :annoyed:

[Ornbarn]

*girly voice* Stop the fighting... *runs in a corner and cries*

[Quickie]

Stop dramatizing and over-reacting.

[EvoLuTioN]

lol lol lol

[EvoLuTioN]

where the hell did u make that up from

[EvoLuTioN]

and also pumpernickle where did u make that blue background from?

[Zoltan]

O.o nice nice so much anger

[eFaReL]

LOL yeah so much anger. I have clamed down quite a bit, though I am now waiting for my fat cousin to move out because my cousin is the one who makes me mad.