It's sad that you don't have much time but if it's possible you should really learn math proper from the bottom up:
Start at the theory of sets and basic logic which leads to the natural numbers (and proofs on them with induction), then the rational numbers. I'm confident that good lecture that matches your description also starts with these topics.
Basic Linear Algebra is also a topic that should be pretty sweet with a good book. You should at least understand when equations are solvable or unique solvable, how to solve them by the gauß jordan algorithm and what that stuff has to do with matrices and determinants. vectors and vectorspaces are a really easy topic too once you got the picture in your brain.
Then it comes to analysis: The approach to the real and complex numbers, integration and differentiation by series, progressions and power series is pretty tough if it should be formal correct but a good lecture with good illustrations could help a lot. Take the time to really understand the characteristics of the sin-, cos-, sinh-, cosh- and e-funtion and the inverse ones. There are surprisingly many people on universities that don't even know that differentiation gives the slope of the function graph, avoid such gaps in education. Don't resile from grapping paper, pencil and a calculator and investigate some things on your own.
Once you have tightened and completely understood all those basics concepts you'll be more confident at learning and executing higher stuff.
Unfortunately I don't know any (english) book that could help you but I'm sure Louis.Wain, Amazon etc do.
Btw: I did the same self studies on my own after my military service before the university started : )